sankalpa

ರಾಣಿ ಆಕಾಶ ನೋಡಿ ನಕ್ಕಳು .ಕ್ಯಾಲೆಂಡರ್ ನೋಡಿ ಚೆನ್ನಾಗಿದೆ ಡೇಟ್ ಅಂದುಕೊಂಡಾಗ,ದಿನದ ಆಗು ಹೋಗುಗಳು

ಕಣ್ಣಮುಂದೆ ಹರಿದು ಹೋಯಿತು ಮತ್ತೆ ಅದೇ ನಗು ತುಟಿಯ ಅಂಚಿನಲ್ಲಿ ಇಣಕಿ ನೋಡಿತು !ಹಲವು ದಿನಗಳ ಹಿಂದೆ ಈ ದಿನ

ಹೇಗಿರಬೇಕು ಎಂದುಕೊಂಡಾಗ ಉತ್ತರ ಸಿಗಲಿಲ್ಲ .ದೇವರೇ ನಿನ್ನ ಇಷ್ಟ ,ಹೇಗೆ ಬೇಕೋ ಹಗೆ ನಡೆಸು ಎಂದು ಕೊಂಡಳು 

ಇಂದಿನ ದಿನ ನಡೆದ ರೀತಿ ಮನಸ್ಸನ್ನು ತುಮ್ಬಿಥಂದಿತು 

ಬೆಳಗ್ಗೆ ಪ್ರಭ ಮನೆಗೆ ಹೋದಾಗ ತ್ತದ ದೇವಸ್ತಾನಕ್ಕೆ ಹೋಗಣ ಅಂದಳು ಅಲ್ಲಿಂದ ನರಸಿಂಹಸ್ವಾಮಿ ದೇವಸ್ತಾನಕ್ಕೆ ಹೋದರು 

ಅಲ್ಲಿ ಪೂಜೆ,ಪ್ರಸಾದ್ ಆದಮೇಲೆ veenugoopaalaswamy      ದೇವಸ್ತಾನಕ್ಕೆ ಹೋದರು .ಅಲ್ಲಿ ಪೂಜೆ ಪ್ರಸಾದ ಮುಗಿಸಿ  ತಿರುಪತಿ

ದೇವಸ್ತಾನಕ್ಕೆ ಹೋದರು .ಇದೆ ದೇವರು ಮಾಡಿದ ಪ್ಲಾನ್ ಈ ಸ್ಪೆಷಲ್ ದಿನಕ್ಕಾಗಿ 
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ಮತ್ತೆ ಪ್ರಭ ಮತ್ತು ಪದ್ದು ಇಂದ ಉಡುಗೆರೆ ತಾಂಬೂಲ ತೆಗೆದುಕೊಂಡು ಮನೆಗೆ ಬಂದರೆ ಮನಸಿನಲ್ಲಿ ಬರಿ ಸುಂದರ

ಭಾವನೆಗಳು ಅಚುತ್ತ ,ಮಾಧವ,ಕೇಶವ ನಮೋ ಎಂದು ದಿನವನ್ನು,ರಾಣಿ ಮುಗಿಸಿದಳು 

wondered!

Cauvery,was setting the table for her son-in-law to join for lunch.She moved up and down briskly and a smile escaped her lips .  She Recalled last noon's mail exchange with her daughter.The invitation for lunch was graciously accepted and she thought it was a good omen to have her say yes' for a lunch for festive reasons .she was busy. The day dawned,Cauvery kept waiting , as she thought she would come for lunch at 11.At 1130 came she,only to tell her husband would come instead! Are we really the planners? thought Cauvery as she finished setting the table.

Ocean!

 ocean, a drop of water saw.
 How great it thought.
 None noticed what the drop did.
The drop said,"Oh ocean,you r my savior"
A wave came running and carried it to the ocean.
The drop was great now.

silver lining!

Anila always felt her words were ignored by her child. She was nagged by the thought until something in her told to take life as it came.She to her surprise found a lot of energy by letting things to be.The other day she had seen her daughter sharing the cup of curds with her child using the same spoon.Anila didnot like it.

Something in her told its incorrect.Babes eats should be exclusive including the container.Babes represented God to her.She recalled the day of the babe's birth.When the nurse brought the babe to show her,she had mechanically folded her hands towards it in reverence.Thats Anila.Anila had asked her daughter not to share the spoon with her child,but she felt her words would be ignored.This morning when she went to see her daughter she saw her daughter using a separate cup and spon for the babe.She felt immensely happy but didnot share her happiness lest the action would be reversed.Revathi ruled the day and Anila was filled with hope!

sweet!

I have had talks with my toddler grand son using words "beautiful"smart' Good".I have encouraged him to associate the words with his dear people.This morning I thought of having a talk again,and asked the questions.Me: Beautiful yar?

 He: ammi amma.

 me: smart yar?
 He: appi appa.
 me: Good yar?
 He; Champu thata
 Then I thought I should introduce another word.
 Me: Sweet yar?
 He good pati.
 I felt my day was made,lived in the joy of it for long

Rajeevalochana!

Mind has power.Bhakthi enhances it.Bhakthi is intimacy!This I have heard.I believe.I try to imbibe.

How does God help? It is an experience.Unless you have tasted sweet,you cannot understand sweetness.

I felt the presence.I normally donot feel hungry.I take my food by the clock.The other day,eveningI felt so hungry I had to help myself with some eats.I just thought,I should keep some biscuits at home.I almost told my man.But didnot.The next evening, my son brings home two biscuits packets,keeping me in mind.

I was speechless with that gesture of thoughtfulness.I bowed me head down i reverence.My son,you made my life.I see my life in new light.Always my prayers for your happiness and health.Rajeevalochana,namaha! namaha! namaha!

words,thought!

My toddler again.Its a routine to go out in the evening and we fortunately live in a complex ,which sports with a lot of plants,trees and flowers.He loves this walk,he watches the plants,touches the leaves and flowers and if he sees a flower on the ground tries to fix it back on the plant. He can name about six flowers and three plant sand can recognize the coconut tree. Last evening he went close to the coconut tree and was thrilled he could touch it.I drew his attention to the next tree that was huger than coconut tree and had some leaves growing with in his reach.He came to it.Touched the tender little leaves and said,"beautiful" The last word I expected from him.This took me back to a day in 1985.we had taken out our little daughter to a park.She saw a dressed palm tree and said,"SHANKA,CHAKRA GADHA HASTE" meaning it looked like a description of goddess laxmi.

playtime!

My toddler adds such amazing shades for each day that it should go in black and white.The day always begins with sun shine,so also today.He spends time with his mom till she goes to get ready to go to office and he comes to us,his grand parents.He is not happy to send his mom to office,but that does not make his coming to us less welcome.He comes with joy filled face and thrill spilling eyes.There is something divine about him. He is shortly going to turn two.He came in and started playing with his toys. He saw his puppy,the stuffed one and felt it is hungry.
He said," puppy hi chairle.mummu kukkunu"( Puppy is hungry.I am taking him to hi chair for food)."Pati,beetroot kudu"( give beetroot).With difficulty I had to make him understand puppy,his,can not eat

growth!

Day in and out my toddler spills surprises! He normally sleeps with a particular music on.Today I tried to play some hyms.He said," vere pat pud" ( put some other song).His tastes are maturing.When served with dinner he asked for somevegitable.When served with cabage curry,he enjoyed and demanded for more.We were watching TV,cricket.When Harsha Bogle appeared he said'smarta ikkra" (he is smart).Normally his lunch or dinner begins with ghee rice.The other day I started it with curry mixed rice.He said,"Nayyi mammu' ( rice mixed with ghee) as if to remind me.

creativity!

My toddler grand son is amazing us with acts which we least expected. He is adept with language and creates his words.He says" kani,kani balcony" kal,kal Cycle" "Kus kus abacus"
Normally we take him to pooja after his bath and ask him to say Jootha' (pranam).The other day he saw a flower on the pedstal and demanded that flower is given to him.when I gave him the flower he gave that back to me asking "chutko"( put it on the haed).After that he wanted to go to the pooja again and demanded for the green flower meaning Tulasi,when tulasi was given to him he called histhata and gave it to him.
When we walk in he garden he sees the falllen flowers picks them wants to put them back on the plant.Every day he adds an act that amazes and make us feel he is growing faster than we can see!

Nikshepa!

Nikshepa, I understand what we value most.Generally it is gold ,diamond ,property.But it can be apart of a picture ,a sweet word,a lovely gesture, a sway of a leaf. We need to be aware of what our Nikshepa is!. Anila,used to take morningwalks and get inspired.Everything she saw added joy.But something inside made her feel sad.May be she expected something from ones who were her world.She would wonder,if a plant can sway as you approach,why not the ones who think and act.She tried to initiate but that got her mechanical sway.The dent inside continued to bother.She thought and thought and realised the problem was in her.She decided to greet her way in the morning with warmth trying to see the spot of joy.She felt she had discoverd her Nikshepa.She realised there is nothing greater than Nature.Her heart appeared satisfied.

RHYTHM

A nice Saturday .The day break was breath taking.The balcony faces the east.TV program me presented great visuals of NARASIMHAVATHARA,but the eastern sky showed such flash of lightthe TV programme lost its glow.The day progressed and my toddler grand child came in.I was busy in my kitchen chores.I heard a soft devine voice telling"PATI,KAYI ANT ANT"( Meaning the hand is sticky).The scenerio took me away 50 years back.I recalled my first niece telling me," CHACHA AUNTY PALALE BICHI ONU".the girl nowhas teen age sons.I was baffled by the rhythm of time

In touch with soul!

He started singing ,"marugelaraaaa ooRaghava...".The toddler started listening and got engrossed

and started beating his palm for the rhythm.He got inspired went on singing.There was amoment

when he had closed his eyes and the babe kept listening with involvement.The song came to the

end,There was ecstasy on his face.He came up to the toddler and did NAMASKARAM with his

hands folded.I was watching over with joy that rapt moment

A new role!

Raju's death demanded a new role from his brother.He had to take the place of Raju in his son,Raghu's wedding. The vedic prescription of the couple to lead any auspicious function,made me play the role of Raghu's mother,in her presence. In a narrow perspective,it might look cruel,but the VEDAS tell us individuals donot matter and all life is one,as seas take the identity of rivers.March 18th was decided for he wedding.The function to take place in Chennai,the bride's place.Wedding prelimenaries started on 16th,Friday at Raju's place.The extended family took an active role.The Friday wore afestive look.The rituals were performed with interest and devotion.
Lilly,Raju's sister lead the rituals connected with ladies.We both were on the dias with the groom.
The ladies were busy doing pooja to he pendal and honouring the ladies,as we are told,when keep the lady happy the home is happy.All were busy from 8am to 11 am.The beginning was grand and good,and we knew the the rest of rituals would go well. Betu vadhyar went in elaboration.Three hour long rituals added an aura to the home.Every one was busy and added their bit in to the function.Raju,though absent physically,am sure watched over and saw the mood of joy prevailed. The evening we left for Chennai.The morning of 17th we reached and ceremoniously received by the bride's party.All was well attended. 18th morning the wedding ceremony stated with an aura of joy.I experienced the spirit of VASUDEVAKUNTABAM.

Revathi!

Her son-in law mentioned his new car would arrive on Friday.Some how a calculation in her mind had told the coming Friday is Revathi,her daughter's star.This thought brought a gentle smile on her and faded unnoticed.It was on Friday morning she came to know Revathi did not rule Friday.Later she learnt the new car would arrive on Saturday,the star was Revathi.Her heart wished for good tidings on Revathi and in addition to getting a new carher daughter was given a chance to to join the panel to conduct an interview.Small joys remained purely personal but added energy to let go darkness that always comes with light.May Revathi be blessed.

Garuda!

Yesterday,my toddler looking at the sky said "garuda". My memory got stirred.I looked into myself,became aware of the fact That Garuda brings a lot of good thoughts and spotting garuda adds smile.Then I tried to get at the origin of this obsession.When i was a school girlmay be some 60 years back,When I looked at the sky and spotted a garuda,I was told its a good sign to spot.It had stayed at that.When my child was 7or 8 she would always spot it with enthusiasm and it caught me.once I looked the sky and wished I would spot one Garuda and really found one.I recall ,I have been making it a point to search for one where ever I went.I did spot one when in Thirupathi,one in Badari when I was there.But This toddler of 19 months naming it looking at the sky did surprise me and feel the babe has some devine preknowledge.

GARUDA,PLEASE CARRY HIS BLESSSINGS FOR THE BABE!

power of the Sun!

Saturday was not a good day for kriti.She had seen her daughter in pain and off mood. That resulted in rough talk.She kept wondering how she could help.The day ended with her thinking.She woke up next day a bit late.When she looked at the sky she saw the Sun gently heralding the day.She stood stock still.It was beautiful.Too beautiful for the words.As she stared her mind recalled a thought she had heard recently.If You stand before the Sun with reverence and seek a thing you will be bestowed.Her mind said,"Oh Sun,help my daughter fight the ailment and carry the day with cheer and spirit".So saying she went about her work.When she met her daughter there was no shade of pain.The whole day she was active and gentle.she spoke in appreciation.She spoke her concern.She not only invited her to dinner,the dinner was made well and in time.First time dinner was ready by 8pm.Whether you believe in the power of Sun or not,She decided to be more reverential to THE SUN!

communication!

My angel does it again!

I was trying to engage him and streched myself on the floor.

He said,"edda,edda,manchu ann". ( get up this is no bed).

I was looking at an invitation card.He saw me and said,"shantha aunty kuttale"

(given by shantha aunty).

It is a practice to pray at mantap after the bath.we teach him to repeat,

"jootha.kapathappa,enne,appave,ammave".

( Oh god,bless me,my father,and mother)

When did it yesterday, he added "Thee pative" meaning his grand mother,whose

neme is Mythily,he calls her Thee pati.

when I was reporting this to his mother he added" venuthathave"

Amazing.

Incredible!

My toddler angel is fond of Tabala.So we thought we would bring him a toy drum.

we did.When we handed him saying your tabala,he took it saying"drum"

My husband was looking at a birth chart ,I was sitting with this angel.I asked my

husband in kannada"Nakshatra yavudu"( what is the star),m lttle one responded saying star.

Prelearning?

We believe in doing our bit to remember the almighty in terms of pooja.Our toddler grand son spends time with us as his parents will be off on duty.He is a keen observer and seems to learn too.The other day an acquaintance of ours was here with an invitation to invite us.The babe took the card into his hands,looked at it,saw the symbols of srivaishnavas,and said,"shanki--chakri--".we were amazed.He was recalling the lines of Vishnusahasranama looking at the symbols.Whats this other than being born with learning! May be broader mind field than an average? May the babe be blessed.

love!

Babes do represent God.If you want to see God.My angel made me happy in a unique way.I was talking to my angel,18month old, about the flowers bloomed in our balcony.There were two flowers,I said"one for abhyu and another for amma'He immedietly changed and said,"pati".What a way to understand! what a way to communicate! what away to show care!

My birth day!

SIXTIFOURTH birth day has been a day of sweet happenings.The first year with out my dear amma.The special touch was Abhyu's.My angel,18month old said not only HAPPY but gave me a tofee.It was like my lord Krishna giving it.The day was serene and added such gentle colour I can draw from it.Paddu,my dear sister added whatever i would have wished.She planned an outing to Lalbhag,gave a plant with buds that would throw flowers which will continue to add colours to my days and spirit to my thoughts.We went to have lunch,the lunch included obbattu .This is a typical item amma would have wanted me to have.Paddu and Ram came home.I received elluand returned my share.siri added her share in the form of lovely flowers.My son wished me,and his parents too.My friends ,whom I had forgotten,students who hardly come to my mind added their wishes.Brothers called meto wish,sisters called me.My day was great.Last,not the least,Sampth started my day with two lovely roses.May be it means I will thrive both physically and spiritually.
Dear God bless all these lovely souls.Let them have a lovely life.

light!

The light was special.
The light of the new year.
The light was gentle
It did tell its going to be bright.
The light continued to glow
But it was not constant
It appeared to vanish
But only to come back with greater glow.
Do not fear,when not found
I will not desert you,it seemed to say.

goodnight!

Hi,

I thought I would share with you a unique experience.We all say goodnight,as we retire.Even a kid who begins to use a language would say "goodnight".Nothing can be more common.I want to tell you the other day my son greeted me with goodnight,which had avolume of litereture packed in it.The voice was so soft,it meant to say "pl take life slow,it isfragile,lest it may take away roses from it".The Eyes had such sparkle that meant to say,'Life is not you,the physical,it is you the metaphysical".It was said so quickly,it meant life may end as quickly .Do relish the sparkle of it".I said to my self,"Thank you my son,I have noted'
What do you think life is? lets discuss.
with love,
mani.

welcome 2012!

The day dawned with a lovely shade.Dappled colours decked the sky.The hue was gentle.It lit the surrounding.I take it symbolically.More colour and cheer will spread in the days to come.I am sure the universe will serve me with these colours every day.Do I want anything more?
Thank you 2012.Have a lovely journey.